guys i don’t even know what to say other than i’m so incredibly sorry, but real lofe calls me to leave the rp. it consists of misc. family issues, stress due to overload schoolwork, extracurricular commitments, a dire need for a social life, planning out a novel, filming a movie, voice lessons… gahh. i can’t name them all. more than anything, i guess, blame my own propensity for procrastination. truth is, i should have stepped back a long time ago and given a more dedicated roleplayers the option of playing jiyong or tablo. i kept telling myself i would certainly go back, because i enjoy this community so much and i feel so at home here. but i’ve been unmotivated and unfocused, and as a result i broke a lot of promises i made with many of you. for that, i’m really sorry.

words cannot contain how greatly i adore saving. i’ve made so many great friends and had plenty of memorable interractions. more than anything, i tried to avoid having it come to this- but with my rather unhealthy internet addiction (oops) and the honestly lofty demands/expectations of my school and family, i find i have no other choice. i need to learn to be organized and study-smart, even if that means taking a break from saving.

i’d like to return in the summertime, but i’ll see how it goes. again, i’m sincerely sorry to all those i’ve let down in terms of plotting/replies. i wanted to follow through with them more than anything. i’m especially sorry to seunghyun (my love!), bro wooyoung, my gurl miryo, and dongsaeng suzy ;~; i know we got excited for some truly EPIC plots and i’m angry at myself if i’ve let you guys down.

that being said, actually, i would always be welcome for a select few (1-3) roleplays outside this community, probably which i’ll reserve for some of my closer friends here. but of you’re interested, please don’t hesitate to ask! i’ll always be up to plotting. fyi i can be reached at the following:

baby-g00dnight.tumblr.com (gtop stanning blog)

cheshire-cat-smiles.tumblr.com (personal blog with bbc sherlock overload and a dash of comedy/fashion/ghetto/hipster um pretty much random shit)

shuffleadream.livejournal.com (fanfic archive)

jiyongieee@hotmail.com (msn/email)

so i would probably cry if anyone took the time to contact me there and keep in touch. i miss you guys already, i have been, and i will continue to do so in the future. T_T

i hope you guys will continue to look well on me. this was super super super hard to finally come to this. again, i love you guys b/c you’re all like family and i so enjoyed being a part of this terrific environment. 

if jiyong is still availible, i hope to return within a few months. :)

suzy-citizen:

This was not what she had expected. She wasn’t expecting a reunion with her oppa to be like this. It was a disappointment to her, but she try not to think about it too much. Its not like her life had been amazing to begin with anyways. Life will bring you disappoint and through everything that she had been through, she’s use to it already.

“Your not what?” she question. Suzy didn’t understand what he was trying to say. She didn’t know what he was now, but when she looked at him she see him as the older brother that she loved. The older brother that she will always love. The older brother that she wanted back in her life again - that’s if he wanted to be a part of her life. She left out a sigh as she grip her hand together into a fist. This was just too much, too much.

Suzy listen to him. His apology was kind enough to make a tear fall down from her eyes. With her left hand, she wipe it away as fast as she could. She didn’t want him to see her breaking down, not after all this time. “I don’t understand.” she mumble to him. Lifting up her head she look at him letting out a small chuckle. “Hate you? Do you know how hard I try to hate you? Do you know how hard I try to forget you? Do you know how much suffering you had put me through?” she question him with a raise of an eyebrow. “I’ve done so much to try and get rid of you, but it all fail! Why? Because you’re my oppa! How can I hate someone that I grew up loving and caring about so much How?!”

It takes a lot to hate someone, but Suzy just couldn’t as much as she wanted to hate him, she couldn’t. The past memories overtakes all the pain that she had to endure during the time he had left her. “Why didn’t you come back?” she question. “How did you get yourself in such a shameful place that you can’t get yourself out?” She wanted to know, she needed to know. “Top of my class.” she told him in a harsh tone. “How do you expect me not to be mad? Did you expect me to be jolly Suzy when we were meet?”

it hurt, it really did, to so unexpectedly have to stand and witness her sorrow, her solitude. the worst part of it was that jiyong didn’t know what to do. didn’t know how to console her, didn’t even know if he could say for sure if he would stay.

wordlessly, jiyong peered over his shoulder into the seemingly endless pitch that lay out before him. of course, the easy way out would have been to run away from this confrontation he’d spent years avoiding. but that would have been irresponsible- suzy needed him. or maybe she didn’t, if he was honest with himself. she was getting along well on her own, without him to lead her off track. maybe it was a little selfish, but…

“would it be all right… if i stayed with you from now on?”

his voice caught on the words, and he sighed inwardly, fighting to keep the tremor out of his voice.

“i- i- i know i don’t deserve your forgiveness, i don’t expect that from you. even so, i want to make it up to you, even if it’s not enough, it’s something- right? if you need money, i can support you- i’ll take on some more jobs, we’ll get by.” he didn’t mention his shitty flat in the worst parts of the city, and how he was constantly skipping meals in order to pay the rent. “i know this is sudden, but this is kind of like fate… right? i’m lonely,” he admitted, “and i just want to help somehow, even if all i’ve ever been is a fuckup. if you want me to get out of your face and never speak to you again, i understand. if you need money… a ride home… i’m here… okay? just say the word.”

alone in saving chat.. sob

hey everyone!!! midterms are over so i’m baaaack. ^^
like this post if i have to reply to you??? or pm me if youd like to plot with either ji or tablo

sorry for doing this on short notice, but due to the stress of midterms i will be on hiatus from now until the 25th. love y’all and will hope to finish all the replies then! <3